Make a wish~

Make a wish, in a totally different way

Stack it up, make a wish…

Who knows, it might come true without you even knowing?

Just wishing…

Oh, 2011 is here…

Loniest cake ever

Wow, 2010 just came and went. I don’t feel anything for the coming of year 2011. Just another day, just another year, it comes and goes…

I have been cold to my blog recently. I don’t know why. Maybe could be that I have nothing interesting to share, or maybe just plain not in the mood to share anything at all.

Anyways, winter is my least liked season of all, because it instills me the feeling of loneliness and homesickness in the freezing cold weather, especially during festive seasons like Christmas and new year’s day. I’m kinda sick of the hoohas about all these celebrations and stuffs…

I have to admit, I’m lonely here. I guess I’m a sucker for companionship and all. Look at that cake. Would it be sad if I tell you that I bought that cake by myself for myself in Christmas day? What a wuss I am you would say… Well luckily it wasn’t.

Maybe something small and simple should be appreciated more than we should.

Or maybe I can make a choice and try to change the situation right now?

This calls for a new year’s resolution!!!! Lemme think about it and get back here as soon as possible, kay?

Happy New Year Everyone!

And by the way, yes, that’s a jumping corgi with the phrase “If you BELIEVE, You will SUCCEED” wallpaper on my laptop. 😀

I have my own problems.

 

Tired

I always begin my day with a laugh.

If you ever met me, you would wonder where I get my “excessive happiness” from. Yes, I was commented by people before about me being too happy.Well, all you selfish pessimists out there, don’t even try to cross my line ever.

Always facing life with a smile doesn’t mean that I do not have any of my own problems. You never see me when I am down, you never know what I am thinking or hiding despite my smile. I too have my deep troubles.

Sometimes, I feel really tired. Seems like reality has really come down on me. My contagious laughter is less by the day.

Stop bothering me with all your petty problems. I have my own to deal with. Plenty of them.

I am tired. I need some rest.

Runaway

Runaway from reality

Have you ever wanted to run away from everything?

I do.

Runaway. Just keep on running, and never look back.

No regrets.

Something simple…

Early in the days, simplicity...

Living in a country where everything is fast pace, stopping once in a while is a good thing.

Stop, stand and look around… Sometimes everything is so blurry, like a photo taken in a slow shutter speed with blurry silhouette of people walking around in a busy city street.

In a society where everyone is trying to gain the most whenever they can, suddenly I thought, maybe simplicity could be the answer.

What are we really chasing for? Why complicate life with so much trouble, with so much stress?

Just live simple, and be content, isn’t that suffice to sustain a normal life?

This is what I am telling myself now. But looking ahead, this simple plan won’t work. There are more to come, and we should get prepared for the worst when things turn the other way.

Just hope the body can catch up with everything we throw at it.

Simplicity, is the only thing I yearn for the most.

Just like a caged animal.

Caged in, yearning for freedom

How often do you feel that you have been caged in an invisible prison, forced to spend most your time on routine tasks everyday, exchanging your freedom just to get ends meet?

How often do you wonder, have you ever threaded on the wrong path, maybe you had made a wrong choice or decision?

Have you ever thought that maybe you would be better off doing something else?

Have you ever wondered, where’s the love from your fellow human beings living around you?

Come to think of it, passion about something doesn’t last very long for us normal people. I remember myself as wanting to be some passionate engineer who can bring benefit to society, but it didn’t take too long to realize that this is harder than I had ever imagined.

I guess we have society to blame. We are living in a broken system, where freedom and love are long gone, exchanged with monetary means and materialistic mindsets. Most of us are selfish, involved in this rat race, thinking all about ourselves and never spare a thought about others. I myself had become obsessed with that, that I want to move on as quickly as possible to get whatever I wanted the most. I have really changed.

I always thought that the choices that I had made was right. But now I kind of doubt it. I need to find back my passion, my compassion that I had always have it in me all the time. It seems that I had changed a lot, and I think it would be difficult to find back my old self again.

I had always been a fan of the 1998 “Patch Adams” movie, which is based on a true story. It is a story about a nobody, about the process of this nobody, Hunter ‘Patch’ Adams, becoming a doctor who sees patients as doctors, healing patients with laughter and love, helping patients, taking them as friends. He is a living person by the way, and he is still continuing his effort by building hospitals which provides free medical care for those in need without the complications of medical insurance and what not. Patch had been my inspiration when I was young, and I think I need to find something which ultimately will make me happy for doing it, just like Patch being happy by helping other fellow human beings.

Maybe I should start making people around me laugh again? Is it possible to find back the long gone passion? I have only myself to ask… I want to feel the love around me, around the people that I live with, to feel satisfied with what I am doing. First, I need to share love. I really want to help, and get helped by someone else.

The sense of belonging…

 

Prayers… How many are answered?

So many prayers to be answered

Have you ever wondered, are all prayers answered?

I am sure that everyone has different wishes and wanted God to help out as much as He could.

For me, most of the time, my prayers are answered. I don’t ask for much, just wanting my family and my closest friends to be safe and healthy. Even though occasionally they might fall sick, most of the time they are sound and fine. So I guess, in one way, my prayers are always answered. Are yours?

Now, trying to be a bit more greedy, I want to ask for more. I have a wish, a wish that I really hope God will listen and help me out. It seemed very much impossible to achieve, but none the less it is worth a try.

I know I should be happy with what I have, but being human, is hard to avoid being greedy some time. God, maybe I pray harder, you would help me out? Just for this time…

Fear…

Ever wished for everlasting beauty?

Have you ever wished that something beautiful would never end? I do.

Sometimes, I am so terrified of something I like in my life would end, or disappear, just like that. Beautiful things are never meant to last forever. They always seem so short to me, and I am really not content with it at all.

Just like this beautiful sunset. It was really stunning, but this beauty never last for long. Even though I know that I can see the same beauty the next day, I still hope that it would last a bit longer than it suppose to.

It is just like praying for something inevitable not to happen. I know sooner or later, it would happen, but yet in my heart, I wished the day would never come. It is really unfair for something beautiful to come to an end in such a brief moment. The more I long for it, the faster it goes by…

Maybe, it’s all about what you can get from this short, but beautiful period of time. It is no use to sit here and whine for something that would eventually happen. Cherish, be content, and maybe one day when I look back, I won’t regret on what I had done, or what I haven’t done.

But in my heart, I will still continue to pray, for this day would never come…

Dreams…

My dream apartment, maybe?

There is a row of high-end apartments sitting right in the middle of Bucheon, a place I always pass by everyday on my way to work.

People always say, you won’t succeed when you don’t have a dream. But I would dare to say, even you have a dream, it doesn’t mean you will succeed. I am confident enough to say that I am a great dreamer, dreaming about all kinds of impossible stuffs. But seems like for someone who doesn’t walk the talk, all the dreams will just remain, as dreams.

I don’t know how much one unit of this apartment cost, and I don’t really dare to imagine the astronomical figure of it. Day by day, while passing by this place, in my mind, were the same thoughts, “when can I own something like that in the future?” The overwhelming feeling of owning something I really want will rush by, just like a washing tide in the evening. Just some puny dreams of mine.  Anyhow, I always yearned for something with a big front lawn and huge backyard rather than some apartment floating in the air!

Put all dreams aside, and maybe work a little harder. With some persistence and luck, I might get something similar to what I had always dreamt off.

Dare to dream!

In a world of make believe.

Journey into the world of make-believe

Sometimes, our world could be so twisted and cruel. The future seems so uncertain right now, for me, and for everything else around me.

Following the recent development in the Korea peninsular, everything seems to go on the wrong way. Whatever that had been done before decades ago, are now all gone, just in days. If you aren’t sure what I am talking about, it’s the sinking of the Cheonan corvette last couple months ago. Even though people around me say war isn’t imminent right now, it troubles me a lot. To think that someone could be cruel enough to torpedo a ship, that someone could also start a war for no particular reasons…

Well, frankly, everything seems to be upside down for me. Even though my career had merely just begun, my future seemed so blur, seemed so… uncertain at times. Sometimes I really dream of getting everything right and being successful in life, not disappointed everyone around me. I had been living my world of make-believe. I don’t know, I just don’t know. Now I just realized, responsibility is far more greater than I had imagined, and everything is much harder than before. There are more waiting for me out there, and it seems like I am not ready yet.

Maybe it’s best, to get whatever we can, out of any situation we are in. Be it something big, or something insignificant. Don’t let anything slip off, and someday regret about it.

Forget all about fairy tales of life that would never happen, and get ready to face this real world head on, even though, we have no idea we are heading to…