Prayers… How many are answered?

So many prayers to be answered

Have you ever wondered, are all prayers answered?

I am sure that everyone has different wishes and wanted God to help out as much as He could.

For me, most of the time, my prayers are answered. I don’t ask for much, just wanting my family and my closest friends to be safe and healthy. Even though occasionally they might fall sick, most of the time they are sound and fine. So I guess, in one way, my prayers are always answered. Are yours?

Now, trying to be a bit more greedy, I want to ask for more. I have a wish, a wish that I really hope God will listen and help me out. It seemed very much impossible to achieve, but none the less it is worth a try.

I know I should be happy with what I have, but being human, is hard to avoid being greedy some time. God, maybe I pray harder, you would help me out? Just for this time…

Fear…

Ever wished for everlasting beauty?

Have you ever wished that something beautiful would never end? I do.

Sometimes, I am so terrified of something I like in my life would end, or disappear, just like that. Beautiful things are never meant to last forever. They always seem so short to me, and I am really not content with it at all.

Just like this beautiful sunset. It was really stunning, but this beauty never last for long. Even though I know that I can see the same beauty the next day, I still hope that it would last a bit longer than it suppose to.

It is just like praying for something inevitable not to happen. I know sooner or later, it would happen, but yet in my heart, I wished the day would never come. It is really unfair for something beautiful to come to an end in such a brief moment. The more I long for it, the faster it goes by…

Maybe, it’s all about what you can get from this short, but beautiful period of time. It is no use to sit here and whine for something that would eventually happen. Cherish, be content, and maybe one day when I look back, I won’t regret on what I had done, or what I haven’t done.

But in my heart, I will still continue to pray, for this day would never come…

Dreams…

My dream apartment, maybe?

There is a row of high-end apartments sitting right in the middle of Bucheon, a place I always pass by everyday on my way to work.

People always say, you won’t succeed when you don’t have a dream. But I would dare to say, even you have a dream, it doesn’t mean you will succeed. I am confident enough to say that I am a great dreamer, dreaming about all kinds of impossible stuffs. But seems like for someone who doesn’t walk the talk, all the dreams will just remain, as dreams.

I don’t know how much one unit of this apartment cost, and I don’t really dare to imagine the astronomical figure of it. Day by day, while passing by this place, in my mind, were the same thoughts, “when can I own something like that in the future?” The overwhelming feeling of owning something I really want will rush by, just like a washing tide in the evening. Just some puny dreams of mine.  Anyhow, I always yearned for something with a big front lawn and huge backyard rather than some apartment floating in the air!

Put all dreams aside, and maybe work a little harder. With some persistence and luck, I might get something similar to what I had always dreamt off.

Dare to dream!

Happy Mother’s Day

Mother's never-ending love

I guess the hard part being a mother is to bear the pain when a child have to leave her and journey into the real world when he or she grows up.

Every mother would always wants their children to be by their side, for better or for worst.

But sometimes, all we ever wanted is just to show love and gratitude to them, doing what’s best for us and for our parents. Leaving them hurts us as much as, or even more than how it hurts them.

We should never forget how much they sacrificed for us, and should always remember and cherish them as much as we can, to repay a debt that we might never be able to repay.

Maybe just for one day, we should tell them how much we love them, let them know that how important they are to us.

Happy Mother’s day.

Crossing paths

Crossing paths, where there isn't any path at all

This is the first time I post something on this blog during work. Since I had uploaded some photos into WordPress last week, mind as well write something here during lunch time.

This photo was taken at the shores of Busan. Interesting to see, two boats crossing paths side by side, where the sea is so wide, and there aren’t actually any path to begin with. I find it very peculiar.  Don’t you think so?

Is it just coincidence when we meet someone in our lives? Or is it fate? Sometimes that really makes me wonder at how relationships with good friends are made. What made us crossed-path? Is it just being at the right place and at the right time? Or is it just fate? Or maybe it is something planned by God? I wondered on, on this thing, all the time. If I were to choose to be at a different place at that particular time, would I ever meet that special friend? No one knows, maybe God does.

So, for me, I would cherish every relationship that I can make, big or small. Sometimes, it is more than luck, fate, or just plain coincidence.

Remember to keep in touch with your friends from time to time.

Worried about someone.

The door to loneliness

Have you ever worry about someone that you cannot concentrate on the things you do? Have you ever worry about someone until your head aches?

How would you react when someone you love, someone close to you, suddenly stop replying your messages and never pick up your phone calls, without any particular reasons?

For me, I would worry sick about them. Thinking something bad might happen to them. Maybe they were involved in an accident? Could anyone be so busy that they couldn’t even reply a simple sms?

I felt really lonely suddenly when this kind of situation happens. I couldn’t figure out what really happened here.

I hope they are fine, and always save and sound. That is what I hope for the most.

Be safe.

Wedding Matters, Part I

Looking back at the posts that I had made for the past few weeks, everything seems a bit too personal, with only meaningless monologue and thoughts of mine.

Now I shall share with all of you some of the photos I shot during my brother’s wedding which was held 3 months ago. Too bad that I couldn’t get the permission to put up potraits of people that I shot during the wedding. The most I can share, is the stuff that you can generally see in a Malaysian-Chinese wedding.

I hope you enjoy.

"Heart to heart" decorative lamps

New bedsheets for the new couple

Just having a sweet kiss

On the Altar

Offerings to the Heaven, morning prayers

Joss stick offerings

As you can see, those shown in the photos are just some decorative objects used in the room of the groom and the bride, and also the things offered on the altar for the morning prayer on the day of the wedding ceremony.

More photos will come next time. Stay tune.

Pampered

Yummy

It is always the best to have someone close in our lives, be it your family, soul mate, your best friend, or just some stranger that you met in your life.

Frankly speaking, my university life in Korea, even with good friends beside, can only be described as plain loneliness. Maybe it was just me, but from time to time, I would feel lonely even though I don’t express it out. I couldn’t wait anymore, and wanted to head back to Malaysia for work after finishing my studies.

But, here I am, still in the land of Kimchi, working in a mid-size company as an R&D engineer. Kinda contradicting, isn’t it?

Well, I guess I would call this fate, or just something planned by God. Right now, I live at the outskirt of Seoul, in a town call Bucheon, famous for its industrial park and all. Coincidentally, my foster family also lives in the same area. This is the Korean family that I first met when I had my home-stay program during my language course 5 years ago.

I can be considered as a total stranger to them, but maybe because they don’t have any son in their family, or for any other unknown reasons, they treat me like their own children. I am really lucky to have such a family beside me, even though during my university life I didn’t spend much time with them at all.

Even though I have a busy schedule all the time, I would try my best to spend time with them. I just really like their company especially when I am feeling down and lonely. Sometimes having a simple dinner in their home can feel so special. Simple food like the glass noodle in the picture above can bring me such warmth and happiness.

Sometimes, I really want to tell them how grateful I am to have them beside me now, even though it would be hard for me to express that in Korean. How am I gonna repay all their deeds back next time?

Never assume what you think is always correct.

I don't need anyone to shine me a path during the day

How come some people always like to assume what they think is always correct, and never think of the feelings or the situation of the others? I especially hate those who assume, and also do whatever they think is correct, but in the other hand is a big mistake to others.

How many times do I need to tell you? I don’t need your unwanted help, as you had already complicated many things, while I just sit quietly here doing nothing. Don’t you ever thought of my feelings and all?

I might be a small boat in a vast ocean, and you might be the sole lighthouse shining a path for me all the time. But time has changed, and I do not need this light during the day.

Not to say that I will never need your help, but please, think clearly of what you want to say and what you want to do. It might be hurtful to someone else. You always think that you are correct, but in many ways, you made so many mistakes that you yourself don’t want to admit. I wish not to confront with you much, but everything has a limit.

And thank to the someone who always like to send the wrong message to others. Please, for the love of God, stop reporting everything. Some things are better kept in between.

Thanks to you all, my day is ruined. Thanks a lot. I couldn’t be any happier in my entire life with the choices I make. What had I done wrong to deserve all these? Couldn’t you all just be happy and leave me alone?

Goodbye student life…

Goodbye Hanyang

After a two-year stint of studies in Hanyang University, I finally finished my course and obtained my degree in Mechanical Engineering. Erm… Not quite, not until I “officially” graduate on late February next year.

Does 2 years of hardship pay off? I don’t exactly know about the answer for this question. After my final exams, I thought I could have some time to myself, to relax a bit before taking the next journey of my life – WORK.

But it went the other way round, as I am really busy, preparing for interviews and writing résumé, trying to find a job over here in Seoul. Many things came into my thoughts, as I make my choice of either working over here or going back to Malaysia. No one knows about the outcome, maybe only God knows.

One phrase I would like to quote from Doc Brown of Back to the Future,

“We all have to make decisions that affect the course of our lives. You’ve gotta do what you’ve gotta do. And I’ve gotta do what I’ve gotta do.”

Will my next decision change the course of my life?

Christmas is here again, as the new year is also around the corner. Another year will soon pass…

This 2 years of hardship, hope it brings something fruitful back, soon.

*Crossing my fingers*

Just a faint memory soon